A little girl & A lot of love

It's been a while since I last updated, actually it's only been a little over two weeks.  That seems so unreal to me because it feels like forever ago I sat at the computer typing up this post on my due date discussing our options about our little girl's birth.  A lot changed.  We pretty much knew we were going to do a c-section that day.  It was the safest option for our baby so there really was no other choice to my way of thinking but we took the weekend to think about it like the doctor said to.  Monday we went in and find out there was another problem via an ultrasound, it looked like our little lady would have shoulder dystocia which made things a bit more serious and just confirmed that we were making the right choice in going with a c-section.  It all happened very fast though.   Suddenly the doctor was saying 'all right well let's schedule you right now' and the nurse said Friday but my doctor intervened and said before that so we decided on Wednesday...it was Monday it all seemed to be happening so fast!  So then I went over to the hospital for some blood work and husband drove over to sit with my mom and aunt while they waited for me right before I went in for the blood work I was called to the front desk apparently there was a phone call for me I couldn't imagine what that was about it turns out it was the secretary from the doctor's office saying they were moving my c-section to Tuesday...uhm what?...that's tomorrow!  I had to ask the lady to repeat herself I really did.  I was in total shock after that.  My husband looked like he was going to cry he was so happy...I thought I was going to throw up.  It was so real so fast!  Fast forward to the next day, we got to the hospital around 11 and before I knew it we were in the Maternity ward and I was meeting 'my nurse' Lyndsey *who was amazing and the Nursery Nurse named Celeste was also fantastic I will post about those ladies and my doctor later!* , after some trouble getting my IV in *I ended up having to have it in my wrist* my family started to pour in I had about 15 people there not including my husband, myself, and the nurses.  My doctor came in, I met my anesthesiologist and it was time to go and get my spinal *which was the part I was the most nervous for* walking into the OR was so weird it was cold and sterile and I really thought I was going to pass out at that point.  They had some trouble with my spinal and I ended up having more medication than normal them trying to give me my spinal actually took longer than the Cesarian itself.  I'm very thankful I didn't have to be put all the way out though, then my doctor came in and the ball started rolling suddenly the drugs kicked in and I was Gone I felt very nauseous but the anesthesiologist took care of that quickly enough then they brought my husband in and suddenly I was thinking "I'm open on the other side of this curtain...weird" I didn't let myself talk to him or anything I just sat there and did some thinking.  The weirdest part was actually feeling it when they took the baby out all the pressure and weight was just lifted out of me.  The doctor said "here she is and look her eyes are already wide open!" *then I also heard "Man look at that placenta!" ...that's nice lol* they cleaned her up and laid her directly on my face which I honestly loved every second of.  My husband was right there by my face as well and I just got to feel her and hear her little cry she even put her little fingers in my mouth I honestly felt like I was absorbing her into my heart it was a magical moment *that I actually have a photo of thanks to the anesthesiologist that I'll share later* and I will never forget a second of it.  Abigail Nancy Dianna Lester was born on February 12th 2013 at 2:37pm and weighed 8lbs and 9oz and was 19 1/2 inches long.

True Love

My husband and I woke up this morning to the irritating alarm blaring, he turned it off and crawled back in bed and we both just stayed under the covers deciding to lay there for a few more minutes before getting up and getting him off to work.  He came up behind me and pulled me close and said "come here and let me hold my girls before I gotta go" and he wrapped his arms around me *and my ever growing 37 weeks pregnant belly* and rubbed my stomach and we just stayed like that for a bit.  Little moments like that I want to remember forever and so I figured I should do a little post about it, just for me really to make sure I never forget.  Sometimes I think the best memories are the ones you aren't able to capture with a camera.

Friday's Letters

Dear Husband I'm so glad we have our awesome insurance and that you going down for reserve duty pays for it but I really hate you being gone for 3days it's not that fun for me *or you* and Abby and I miss you every second you're not here, so drive safe and come home soon please&thanks PS-I'm so  excited about you getting Sgt pretty soon and I'm so proud of you!  Dear Army I must say we miss active duty, there are a lot of things we don't miss *like husband being combat or being separated for almost 3years*  but we do miss somethings but I really love the opportunity to pair super girly clothes for our little lady with Daddy's work clothes it's just to cute!  Dear Abigail I love that I'm feeling you move around more and I'm trying to be a good mommy and eat lots of healthy stuff and sleep the right way and do everything I can to give you a great start in this world *so hopefully you'll forgive me for my one cup of coffee a day?*.  Dear CA-EDD Department I really hope we get our unemployment extension, I can no longer stalk your site trying to figure out if we will or not or focus on how much we need it.  Instead I'm giving it to God and putting it in his hands *which is right where it belongs* and I'm not going to worry about it anymore we're just going to wait the 10days and then figure it out from there.  Dear God thank you for blessing me so much, we may not have a house, a nursery, Stephen may not have a job, and we may not have lots of money...but he's safe, we have health insurance, we have a family that is always there, we have a roof over our heads, and we're able to have a child a beautiful and perfect combination of the both of us...not only that but this little girl is coming into the world to more love than she could ever imagine but I know she'll feel every ounce of it.  Thank you so much for blessing us with the important things and keeping us together and strong.  You are truly an amazing and wonderful God.  Dear Dianna not only are you my best friend but you are my mother's and grandmother's closest friend.  My little girl is going to have your name for one of her middle names and I think it's a perfect fit you were my mom's birth coach for all 4 of us and you're going to be mine to!  I am so excited that you're actually going to get your license/certificate to become a Doula and you're doing in time for Abby's birth!  Of course you would've been my coach with or without the certificate but it's so cool that you'll be my Doula!  Dear Fall you have really pulled through for me with the weather lately, keep up the good work.

3months1day and the perfect little girl's name



Well I'm 3monthd and 1day now, and I'm so happy about it!  I've finally started to quit worrying all the time and am giving it all to the Lord.  And thankfully I'm able to actually eat now.  I've gained 3lbs *1lb a month actually lol*  but I have barely been able to eat anything my morning sickness is terrible!  I've been worried about not being able to eat really healthy yet but the last few days I've been able to cook and eat lots of veggies which makes me feel so much better about it all!  No more cramps or spotting so that is a huge blessing!  Right now I'm just really ready for summer to be over!  I want fall and winter here now!  But the real reason I'm writing this is because we've picked out a little girl's name!  No we don't know that it's a girl but we're still deciding on a boy name.  We chose a letter to go with like my parents, grandparents, and aunt did we're picking 'R' our little girls name will be...

 Reagan Patricia Lorraine Lester

we just love the name Reagan, and Patricia Lorraine was my great aunt's name.  She passed away earlier this year.  She was a beautiful, fantastic person.  And I hope our daughter *if it is a daughter* will turn out to be a tenth of the woman she was.  My aunt Pat meant the world to me, and I couldn't think of a more fitting family name.