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It makes me sad to think about that place I was in, where I felt like I couldn't even go outside I looked so bad. And in reality I don't. And I should never ever feel like that because I love me, My husband loves me, nothing else matters. The movie Phat Girlz? Anyone seen it?
If you have a weight problem stop what you're doing right NOW and rent it. Go. Now. No I am not kidding get up and look on TV or youtube something, anything. It's a great movie, because it's totally true, and exactly how I feel. I'm a thick girl and I love to wear shorts, I'm loud and say my opinion, I love to wear beautiful bright clothes, I enjoy eating, and I will never stop because there is nothing wrong with that. i may not be every ones idea of pretty but then again that doesn't matter because I'm my idea of pretty, and his ;) In high school I didn't talk. Ever. People made jokes about me all the time, then they got to know me after high school and are like "wow why weren't we friends?!" and you know its just as much my fault as theres I didn't give them anything to like about me, they shouldn't have said the things they did and make fun of me how they did but I didn't stop them. I didn't respect myself enough I just tried to get lost in my books and my loud angry music ( Still Love u Heavy Metal ♥ 4Ever Babyyy RIP Purple Hair that I had Jr-Sr. year) I deserved respect and I didn't even know it, so if I didn't know it why would they? If anyone out there is feeling bad about themselves weather you're thin, fat, you think you're ugly, whatever you aren't. Everyone is beautiful. We ALL have things we don't like about ourselves. Look in the mirror everyday and tell yourself one good thing , one thing you love about yourself. Don't be afraid of yourself. Don't be jealous of other people (believe me i know how hard that can be) because even if you think they're the most beautiful person in the world..they probably don't. Don't Judge someone you know nothing about, everyone is fighting their own battle. YOU Deserve respect in whatever you do wherever you're at (I've been a fat girl and a waitress believe me people tried to disrespect me at every turn) demand respect and they'll have no choice but to give it.