It's looking like my husband is going to join the Army Reserves. And I don't know how I feel about it. The positives, pluses, and pro's are amazing and numerous. But the one and only big negative is that he signs up for 5years. He has 2years where they can not mobilize him, and 3 chances to deploy again. My husband had a very hard deployment. I don't go into details much or talk about it a lot but when I see women talking and complaining about only being able to talk to their husbands on the internet or get a few calls a week or the fact that his mail gets their late or that the FOB he's on is miserable, I wish my husband had that. He was a tanker, he had a combat MOS. Where he was at food had to be air dropped to them they ate the same thing everyday for 6 months if I was lucky we'd talk every 3months. To many of his friends died. There were to many times he almost died. So when some woman tries to say I may not really understand about deployments because I'm not an Army wife anymore I get quite offended *sorry different post*. something else that always shocked me that we civilians totally take for granted...he was not able to wash his ACU's for almost 9months. The same clothes Everyday For 9 months. It's hard for me not think wow y'all are lucky when I hear friends talk about 3&6 month deployments I'm like wow! *the poor army has the longest deployments of any branch*
Now please know I'm not belittling anyone's deployment experience no 2deployments are alike everyone has a different MOS everyone is somewhere else. And who am I to say that my hardships or sorrows are worse than another? We each have our own. I'm also not saying I know everything about deployments. I know precious little compared to some. But I know how it affected my husband and myself. And that's what I'm speaking from. So I sincerely hope nobody is offended by this stressed out, worried, and tragically-right-before-my-period post of of mine.
It's just had for me to deal with the fact right now that his MOS would change from a combat MOS, his job would change he'd be doing something in an office, the deployment would be shorter, it wouldn't be like the first time. Wrapping my head around that is difficult. When I think deployment I think no communication, I think anger, I think fights, I think us having the worst time of it ever and not being able to communicate, I think of his mail not even being able to get where he was. I think of our friends dying. I think of him going on missions all the time, of them doing whatever they could to stay awake. I'm thinking of all the time he ALMOST didn't make it home. And I can't say "I don't think I could do it again" because I will ALWAYS do what I have to do. I'm his wife, and no matter what my status is now, I am an Army wife. And we always have been and always will be Army. But it's scary and it hurts to think about it all. But we're going to do it. Mostly because I saw my husband's eyes light up when the man was telling us about it. I know that he loves to take care of his family, he loves to have a job he can do well, that he can be proud of, he knows how to do the Army. It's been his life for so long 24/7 that I don't even think he realizes how much it's become apart of him. Well no matter what happens I'll stand by his decision. I just had to get all this out.