I have God, I have his forgiveness, and his love. What more do I need? I need to STOP turning to others to make me happy and look to myself and to the Lord. I need to lean on him when things get hard, I need to Pray Pray Pray when I don't know what to do. I need to realize it is HIM that is ALWAYS there for me. Not my husband, not my family, not my friends, nobody is there for me like he is. He will carry me when I am to weak to walk, he will love me when I'm unlovable, he knows me better than i know myself, so why do I still try and take everything on all on my own???? Why do I try to handle things, why do I try to take control! Why do I let the worry and stress kick me down, he can take all that from me. He is in control not me. Why do I fight that? As soon as I stop fighting it things will get easier. I need to figure out what I want to do, and what I need to do, what I can do for everyone, so much is happening and I need to pray about every single thing. Nothing is to small or to big to pray about. But for some reason I say "all I can do is pray" what is WRONG with me?! All I can do is pray?????? it should be I GET TO PRAY ABOUT IT THOUGH AND THATS THE BEST THING I CAN DO!
Dear God, lately I've just been letting myself fall. I've been letting friends pick me back up. Trying to make myself super busy to ignore the things that wrong, the things I should be praying about. It doesn't work God I know that I've gone through this before. The difference is now I know that I need to lean on YOU Lord! Please God hold me up, I feel so weak. I feel so weighted down with worry and stress, and envy its hurting me so bad and stopping me from being closer to you. But I don't know how to stop God. I don't know how to stop this. I know good things come to those who wait, help me to wait Lord help me to wait IN you!!! Help me to be kinder, I don't want this bitterness to reach out of me and touch other people anymore God its like an infection and I do not want to spread this around to ANYONE. I don't know how to handle any situation anymore God give me strength to come out of this God give me HOPE I cried alot today and I don't usually cry that much maybe it was good for me. Tonight I'm going to come home and figure out what a normal week in September is going to look like for me, and I want God to be front and center in that. I want to get a new bible. I want things to get better. God please help me. Maybe I'm not supposed to write prayers down like this but I did, and i'm glad typing is easier than talking for me sometimes.
Amen
What Love Really Means, an Amazing song by JJ Heller and below are the lyrics.
He cries in the corner where nobody sees
He’s the kid with the story no one would believe
He prays every night “Dear God won’t you please...
Could you send someone here who will love me?”
Who will love me for me?
Not for what I have done or what I will become
Who will love me for me?
‘Cause nobody has shown me what love
What love really means, what love really means
Her office is shrinking a little each day
She’s the woman whose husband has run away
She’ll go to the gym after working today
Maybe if she was thinner then he would’ve stayed
And she says…
Who'll love me for me?
Not for what I have done or what I will become
Who will love me for me?
‘Cause nobody has shown me what love
What love really means what love really means
He’s waiting to die as he sits all alone
He’s a man in a cell who regrets what he’s done
He utters a cry from the depths of his soul
“Oh Lord, forgive me. I wanna go home”
Then he heard a voice somewhere deep inside
And it said “I know you’ve murdered
Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com
And I know you’ve lied
And I've watched you suffer all of your life
And now that you'll listen I'll tell you that I...”
I will love you for you
Not for what you have done or what you will become
I will love you for you
I will give you the love, the love that you never knew
Love you for you
Not for what you have done or what you will become
I will love you for you
I will give you the love, the love that you never knew
He’s the kid with the story no one would believe
He prays every night “Dear God won’t you please...
Could you send someone here who will love me?”
Who will love me for me?
Not for what I have done or what I will become
Who will love me for me?
‘Cause nobody has shown me what love
What love really means, what love really means
Her office is shrinking a little each day
She’s the woman whose husband has run away
She’ll go to the gym after working today
Maybe if she was thinner then he would’ve stayed
And she says…
Who'll love me for me?
Not for what I have done or what I will become
Who will love me for me?
‘Cause nobody has shown me what love
What love really means what love really means
He’s waiting to die as he sits all alone
He’s a man in a cell who regrets what he’s done
He utters a cry from the depths of his soul
“Oh Lord, forgive me. I wanna go home”
Then he heard a voice somewhere deep inside
And it said “I know you’ve murdered
Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com
And I know you’ve lied
And I've watched you suffer all of your life
And now that you'll listen I'll tell you that I...”
I will love you for you
Not for what you have done or what you will become
I will love you for you
I will give you the love, the love that you never knew
Love you for you
Not for what you have done or what you will become
I will love you for you
I will give you the love, the love that you never knew
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